Venting

I have nazi family that spies on me here but as I erase my presence bit by bit from the internet like I did in 2016, I find I need to express my feelings somewhere until Google eventually deplatforms me like everyone else.

I am more depressed than at any time since before I met my wife. It is clinical and epic though it comes and goes. Had to delete that last sentance due to nazis. It is going to be really depressing and expensive to move and nazis are in Europe. Even found out another european friend is likely a nazi. And frankly due to Nazi family, I kay need to go entirely dark here and cease contact with them. It sounds unhinged, but so does nazis in the white house. What I write pissed nazis off and they are rapists; and they network. A lot. After Jan 20 I need to stop posting here. Switzerland is a big enough place that going dark AND moving to the most democratic country on Earth AND getting a firearm in a country that allows them AND a dog AND a security system will likely keep us safe from American nazis, but the wounds the lds church left on my soul do not heal so easily. I wish I didnt have empathy. I wish I didnt feel most pain for the non humans who wont even know why they die of heat death and I feel bad for the little girls who last year had daddy tell them they could grow up to be president and now have the president tell them that they will be rape bait for roving nazi paramitaries; they are outlawing porn and making women cattle; do the math.

Will we ever learn conservatism is the root of all evil? Lying, Nostalgia for the past, and demonization of the other are who they are. Utopia will never happen until conservative ideas are forbidden. They laugh at my pain as they silence my speech and the speech if others and lie while they do it.

Consertism is the devil. He wanted to make us do good in LDS mythology. Thats the conservatives; lying and feigning righteousness.