[Book] On track

The book is still on track. Video update here.. 500 words a day for 90 days isnt nanowrimo spectacle but its a lot more sustainable.

A Cunning Plan

So. In case I havent mentioned it before, I'm the Anti-Poe. While occasionally I do write and take inspiration from negative emotions such as despair, as a general rule, I need stability, hope, and having my needs met before I can produce art. Frankly, I had imposter syndrome for a long time because I didnt have the need to spout out words before my basic needs of sanity and survival. But I am an artist, and I am very creative and with help (and a lot of editing help) I am able to do art..and the fact is, I can do what a lot of artists cannot...consistently perform complex projects and finish them (or even start them) on a consistent basis. I'm no Steven King. I'm never going to be; but I am literally in mid flight for my ninth and tenth novel (we officially passed the 50K mark (my wife and I) on Fruitloop and Frankenstein for the Book of Heliotropic Fairy Tales....TEN. That's a lot and three more than my basic life goal of seven. I'm getting better and better at it (again with a lot of editing help)....and its not just a worthy accomplishment, I can double it and be as proud of my writing as I am of my gaming career.

So. Not Nanowrimo is fucking toast, and I consider the worst political or event (if you know what's going on) general disaster of my lifetime to be a good reason to disrupt that. But in life, when you are knocked down, you need to get up, dust yourself off and keep on trucking. So, my plan is (and we'll see if it works), is that I am going to write 500 words a day for 90 days to finish the estimated/outlined path for Armor of Stone. I'll resume writing my other projects including the Queen in Blue and Grenademan vs the Lich slowly, and when done with Armor of Stone start researching and outlining Whispers of Water (which so far in my mind is likely to end up being the coolest of the three.)

Also call out to my friend Bernard Setaro Clark for helping me research a rather cool action sequence for one of my projects in the Queen in Blue. I really look forward to releasing this thing and am about half way done. I'm not publishing anything until that chapbook is done and will take all the time it takes until it is 110% right.

[Poem] lolololololol

By Emmit Other

Be careful what you wish for

Oh brother oh sister Be careful what you elect

This is the real world now

The sims took a left turn that night

To wonder what the world would could have been

If only

If only

And now I laugh

Because I am going to push what you asked for

In just the right places

In just the right ways

In just the right ways

There is no restraint

The cabinet he selects is the Justice League of Earth 3

Crimelords and Dogkillers

Piss drinkers and masturbation failures And you will lap it up

Like the kid with the sociopath dad who catches his kid smoking

And makes him smoke

Forty packs

And keeps going after the kid pukes

And pukes

And pukes

You will say

Thats not what I meant

They spelled it all out

All out for you

And you signed on the dotted line

With a downpayment

Of every soul in America

Including yours

And I will watch your glass house from afar

I warned

I voted

I helped

And now

I will enjoy every second of suffering

You brought yourself

You get no redemption

You get no last minute miracles

The debt for America has been called

Take

Your

Fucking

Medicine

And learn

What so many fought so bravely and so hard

To keep you having to learn the hard way

And you chose the hard way

Twice

You got a miracle

And assumed another was coming

And the heavens

Are closed for business

Clean up the mess

Lap it up boyo

Lap it up like a good nazi dog

That you chose to be

Venting

I have nazi family that spies on me here but as I erase my presence bit by bit from the internet like I did in 2016, I find I need to express my feelings somewhere until Google eventually deplatforms me like everyone else.

I am more depressed than at any time since before I met my wife. It is clinical and epic though it comes and goes. Had to delete that last sentance due to nazis. It is going to be really depressing and expensive to move and nazis are in Europe. Even found out another european friend is likely a nazi. And frankly due to Nazi family, I kay need to go entirely dark here and cease contact with them. It sounds unhinged, but so does nazis in the white house. What I write pissed nazis off and they are rapists; and they network. A lot. After Jan 20 I need to stop posting here. Switzerland is a big enough place that going dark AND moving to the most democratic country on Earth AND getting a firearm in a country that allows them AND a dog AND a security system will likely keep us safe from American nazis, but the wounds the lds church left on my soul do not heal so easily. I wish I didnt have empathy. I wish I didnt feel most pain for the non humans who wont even know why they die of heat death and I feel bad for the little girls who last year had daddy tell them they could grow up to be president and now have the president tell them that they will be rape bait for roving nazi paramitaries; they are outlawing porn and making women cattle; do the math.

Will we ever learn conservatism is the root of all evil? Lying, Nostalgia for the past, and demonization of the other are who they are. Utopia will never happen until conservative ideas are forbidden. They laugh at my pain as they silence my speech and the speech if others and lie while they do it.

Consertism is the devil. He wanted to make us do good in LDS mythology. Thats the conservatives; lying and feigning righteousness.

[Meme] The Republic Has Fallen

Writing Update

Yeah, I write from joy, and there is no joy in Mudville. However, as of today, I am back to my regular albiet slower writing regime. My current projects include:

-The Queen in Blue

-Armor of Stone

-Grenademan vs the Lich

24 Ludicrous Items: How to Ruin Your Campaign

Fruitloop and Frankenstein with Julia

[Book] Day 4 - Crash and Burn

Yeah finding out that your country has turned into a nazi hellhole and finding out you will need to take advantage of your wife's dual citizenship to get the hell out of dodge can kill your desire to write. I need to take a day or two to figure out what I'm doing or even if trying for this.

My current feelings here