The problem

I have seen what happens if you don't have a dream...and the poet in me is a bit too...ecclectic...to have that really count...granted, helpful to always avoid dying a spirit death but...still.

I think as long as we understand these little things of mine are basically stillborn abominations....and while painting them up pretty with my spare change is nice, major investment is.....purely a vanity project...like pimping my car...

Which means waiting until I rebuild my reserve.  And until  I find another outlet like film making or sculpting or god knows what.

The Story of My Stories

I am not my title character.  Frank Noble never gives up....not ever.  He is the exception to the rule that says that we have have flaws; he has flaws, but he does not give up.  He is special and there is a reason the Helm of Mambrino works for him.

I have kept writing through a lot.  "You'll always have your day job."  Many many rejections, the understanding that my early stuff was awful, being told not to write by professionals, (seriously, like actully told not to), repeated non reads by friends and family (Though many have also been very helpful in this regards), non sales, non increases in the listenership of the podcast, the rejection of guesthood, now twice....

But this last time....

I've gotten better...exponentially better, but the repeated traige of friends and family....the repeated manifestation that they regard my contributions and ideas as valueless....

This is not all my family nor is it all my friends but you must understand it is a huge number.

Then I look at the success of people who aren't really that much better than me...some of them are...some of the aren't.

Mostly its because they are slightly better and more likable.

I try VERY hard to be likable...but it is not enough.

I can't just writ for me.  I know that's wht I'm supposed to do....its why the best writers are introverts...they could give a fuck about the outside world....

i...just.....amtired.  I am tired of losing friend, of dleted manuscripts, of rewrites and needing one more edit, and finding out that that isnt enough and you need another pass or another specialist or a better cover...if you go it on your own and just sync some more money into it...

I haven't completely shut the lights off but I'm damn close.

Who am I kidding?

The podcasts in the queue are it.

Its been real folks.

Grenademan vs the Zombies Chapter 8 Part 2

Jarvi the warlock wants to initiate chaos.  Grenademan and a rag tag group of gamers mean to stop him.

By T.C. Ricks, Performed by Matt Frankin

Check out this episode!

Unfood Part 3 of 3

Freight has to make tough choices to survive. 

Written by T.C. Ricks, Performed by Matt Frankin

Check out this episode!

[Script] Tossing Grenades at Windmills - Page 84

CHAINSAW FRED

My brother died saving his life. I’m going to make sure it amounts to something. 

DOC SHADOWS

I suppose you have a point. I suppose you have a point indeed. 

Hawkqueen

Do you think he’s really out there? 

DOC SHADOWS

Oh, I’m sure of it. The more I think about it, the surer I become. 

FADE TO BLACK

GRENADEMAN

(offscreen voice)

GREETINGS CITIZEN KNIGHT. WHAT IS THE NAME OF THIS PLACE? 

Knight

(Offscreen Voice)

Camelot strange one. 

GRENADEMAN

(Offscreen Voice)

FORSOOTH! IS THERE ANY EVIL ABOUT? 

Knight

(Offscreen Voice)

Indeed, evil abounds across the land. 

GRENADEMAN

(Offscreen Voice)

THEN LET US BE OFF….THAT WE MIGHT FIGHT THE FORCES OF EVIL!

Roll Credits.

Grenademan vs The Zombies - Chapter 8 Part 1 of 2

Performed by Matt Franklin, Edited by Fiona Skye and Skip Huffman, Written by T.C. Ricks.

Things are looking dubious in the town.  Jarvi surfs the wave of the apocolypse.

Check out this episode!

Given that next week

I hope to add some new content and the like I will provide more substance hopefully than just a running number count. :)

I will do that on my twitter feed at @goldkngt55 for any who want to follow

5500 words. 10% of the way there.